Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Someone Like You

I rarely listen to the radio so all these new artists that are on the radio are totally foreign to me. I heard this song and I fell in love. I had no idea what it was called or who sang it. A couple of weeks ago a friend on Facebook posted one of Adele's songs and my mouth hit the floor when I heard her voice. Today I had this song in my head so I got online and googled the few lyrics I knew (I love Google!) and this popped up.

Adele has a breathtaking voice.

I had a dream the other night that brought back so many memories from several years ago and I woke up with a broken heart. I knew the dream was just a dream, but during, I couldn't define the line between real and dream. Those are always the worst to recover from. Anyway, if my dreams could have a soundtrack this would be #1.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Our Fall

Where to begin?

We moved and are mostly settled. We're down to the last 5-10 boxes and I've lost all desire to get them unpacked and put away. They drive me nuts sitting in the garage, but I can just close the door and pretend they aren't there.

We celebrated Emmett's 2nd birthday in October. He had a blast and got lots of presents that were broken almost immediately. Ahh...2 year olds...He also had an appointment to check his ASD and it is still the same as the last check. We're still waiting to see if it gets worse or stays the same. He hasn't had any cyanotic episodes so we aren't really worried about him at this point.

Orson is plugging along at 19+ pounds (probably 20 by now) he's such a healthy, happy boy. Everything makes him smile. He weaned wonderfully at the beginning of the month when I had surgery. I can't believe he's going to be 1 in just a couple of weeks. We've decided that Orson is our little caboose in our family train and it makes me sad that he's growing so quickly. Soon he'll be independent like Mr. Dade and I won't have any more babies to snuggle. On the up side, I'll get to sleep all night again :)

I finally had a carpal tunnel release on my right hand. RELIEF!! I'm still recovering. The incision is still tender from time to time, and I've found that if I don't stretch my fingers out several times a day the tendon becomes very stiff and painful. I'm scheduled to have the left hand done on December 27th and I can't wait to have total cessation of pain.

Justin has been in Atlanta for a business trip since Sunday and holy heck I'm so lonely! It's amazing how much I miss him. I didn't think I'd feel so sad and mopey without him. Even the kids are just pouting around waiting for dad to come home. Luckily he never goes out of town so I'll have my nighttime helper back. Orson likes to wake up at midnight and not go to sleep until 5, then Dade is up at 6. It's starting to really wear on me.

Anyway, there are so many pictures and so much more to tell but time is short!

Thursday, September 29, 2011


We finally sold the house! Closing is scheduled for October 25th and we can leave anytime before then. A huge weight has been lifted. The sun is shining a little brighter. The birds are singing a little bit louder.


This home has served us well. This home has been a haven from the outside world. It was the first and only home our children have ever known. We brought them home as babies, through the front door. Dade crawled the first time in the family room right by the master bedroom door. Emmett came home from the NICU, and Primary Children's Medical Center (twice) and rested in his bed in his first bedroom. Orson learned how to sit not more than 5 feet from where I sit right now. We have had amazing moments as a family in this home.

We have also endured heartache. This home is laced with so many wonderful memories but is also tainted by others. It stopped feeling like "home" a long time ago. At that point we knew it was time to go. Our time in this town has run it's course. We've been aching to be closer to our families, to be back in Salt Lake. We've come to resent this little town.

At a time in our lives when we craved the independence and responsibility of home-ownership, it was a dream come true. Right now, it feels like a boulder is crushing me and no matter what I do, I can't get away. That boulder has been lifted and we get to go and make a fresh start.

We desperately need it.

The only thing that holds me here is our ward family. Truly the best people I've ever known are all around us. They've been amazing friends and neighbors. They selflessly helped us when we had Emmett. They all pitched in and watched Dade every single evening so Justin and I could spend time together in the NICU with Emmett. They have participated in blessings upon our family. They have held us up in so many ways. They have been an incredible example. They have humbled me. They have made me a better person. They have made me more tolerant and forgiving.

I will miss every single person in our ward.

Alas, it's time to move on.

I'm surprised I managed to stay in 1 place the last 6 1/2 years. As a child I moved around a lot. I went to 13 different schools before finishing High School. I never stayed in 1 place longer than 3-4 years. Most places were just a few months. Some just a few days. Moving was so natural to me. I never got attached to anyone or anything. I made friends easily but never developed a relationship with them of much significance (except a precious few) that kept us in touch after I left. Most have long since been forgotten.

I don't want my children to have the life that I did. While I adjusted well to all the moving, I regret that I don't have friends I went to Kindergarten with, and graduated with. I don't plan on making this a routine. We will likely move 1 more time after this move and {hopefully} that will be it.

So I will be signing off until we get moved and settled. I'll see you in about a month!

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

A few things going on

There have been so many things going on the last few weeks that blogging has taken a back seat.

First, and most importantly is that we lost Justin’s grandmother on August 17th. She was a great woman. She accomplished many things in her life. She was an educator in every sense of the word. She celebrated her 90th birthday just 1 month before her passing, and even though her health was failing, she sat outside and visited with the family for several hours. In March she fell and fractured her hip and spent 2 months in rehab. She wasn’t able to return to her home to live alone so she moved in with my in-laws, who provided round the clock care for her for 3 months.
She passed peacefully on a Wednesday evening with her daughter-in-law by her side, while her son served in the Draper Temple. He was called home and made it shortly after she passed. She was a wonderfully sweet lady and I will miss her terribly.

The Wilton classes have been going really well. This course has focused on flowers so I haven’t taken any pictures because they are just practice flowers. I made Dade’s birthday cake (like I’ve done every year but last) and it turned out great! Certainly not perfect, but it was still a big hit and he thought it was the coolest cake ever. 

I also made my nieces cake just last weekend and everyone loved it. Of course, I saw every flaw and wasn’t too pleased with the final result, but she LOVED it so I guess that’s all that matters! Working with fondant was so different from working with buttercream. You can be so much more creative with fondant and I love that. 

I’m also making cupcakes for a special event but I’m not sure if it’s a surprise and since this person reads my blog, I’ll leave it at that until after the event.
All in all I love doing cakes. It’s a great outlet for me, and it’s also nice to have something that’s just mine. I love sharing my creations and I hope I continue to improve in my skills and creativity and this can become more than just a hobby I tap into once every few months.

We also received an offer on our home! (see? I told you it’s been busy!) we had to counter offer and the buyer accepted. Right now we’re waiting to make sure she can get financing and then we’ll be able to proceed. It’s looking like we’ll be moving the first weekend of October. I can’t wait to start this new chapter of our lives!

We are really wanting to build a new home but we aren’t sure that’s a possibility right now. We’re working with a rep from Ivory Homes to see what we can do to get us into a new home soon. For the interim, we will be renting, which isn’t exactly exciting for us but it will make us more able to save for a down payment of a new home. That’s worth the sacrifice!

After 5+ years we’re finally going back to Lake Powell!!! We decided to brave it and go with all 3 kids. We leave a week from Thursday and return that following Sunday. A fairly short trip considering the distance, and all the work that’s put into getting the boat off the buoy, making the trek to our resting location and getting settled. At this point, we’ll take anything! 

Dade is also starting his 2nd year of Preschool the week after we get home from Powell. He’s really excited to see his friends and I’m excited to have some down time. He’s only going to be there for a month but we figured it was better than nothing. He needs the structure that school provides and mom and little brothers need a break!
Well now that you’re all caught up, I promise to try to be better about updating. The next few weeks will surely be a challenge as we try to sort through 6 years of stuff, pack, find a place, and get moved.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

People in my house

I didn't blog about my 2nd Wilton Basics class because it was AWFUL! I found that all my cakes were falling. Just in the last 5-10 minutes of baking, so that was awful. On Wednesday I did the cake, and once again, it fell  through the center and wasn't usable. I googled a homemade cake recipe and found one that contained ingredients I actually had in the house. I made it...and with 5 minutes left it looked beautiful with just a slight crown! At 2 minutes left, it had sunk in the center, almost all the way to the bottom. I was livid. I was done. Who can't make a boxed cake?!

I showered, got in my jammies and laid on my bed and watched NCIS while I cried. My wonderful husband encouraged me and cut into the cake to find that it was cooked all the way through, just super dense. With less than 15 minutes to spare I headed to the class. Angry, and not feeling especially creative. The decorating that night was awful. I just wasn't in my groove that night. I refused to take a picture of the finished product.

Last night was awesome! We worked on flowers and borders. Everything went smoothly (probably because I had extra couplers :) ) The cupcakes looked so awesome. Until I got home. The container they were in tipped to it's side during transport and they were all smashed up and destroyed. Soooo no pictures of those either.

Next week is the last class and we are learning ribbon roses! Can't wait!!

We also had a little bit of an odd thing happen on Monday. Justin was off work for the Holiday and we were out running some errands. Around 1:30 we pulled onto our street to find our front door open, and a car sitting in the driveway. I quickly went inside to see what was going on and was met by a lady, an older man and 2 young kids with just shirts and diapers(who were jumping on my couch)


There aren't enough angry words in the English dictionary to describe how furious I was. The man looked surprised to see us there and asked if we knew there was a showing that day. I informed him that we did not, then I asked him to move out of my way so I could put my kids down for a nap. The lady he was with piped up and said "We called the Realtors office and they said to knock. If you didn't answer then we could just come in" Nothing in this entire world could send me over the edge quite like that comment!!!!!

I told her we were never notified that there was a showing. She seemed irritated that we had the nerve to interrupt her snooping through our house, but she left. We immediately called the Realtor who said he wasn't even in the office that day and his assistant said a realtor called wanting to see the property. The assistant said they could look if they didn't hear back from the office (who tried to call our home phone but not our cell phone) when she couldn't reach us, she tried to call the Realtor who didn't get the message and took it upon herself to come into our home. The call from the Realtors office was made at 12:20 and we got home at 1:30, so there was potentially over an hour that they were in the house. Without our knowledge. The lady that was here was the Realtor, but she never told us that. There was also only 1 vehicle so we assumed they were together. Another weird thing was the guy was whiter than white. The kids and the lady were hispanic. Hmm..

Someone is lying and I'm inclined to believe it was her. Either way, we are totally creeped out and don't feel comfortable in our home anymore.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Being prepared

I have my 2nd cake class on Wednesday and this week we have to bring in a cake, torte, fill, and decorate. I thought I would practice using some things that are totally foreign to me (piping gel, for one!) and make a rough draft of what I'll be making on Wednesday.

I can't seem to get the icing super smooth and to cover up a couple of bare spots I just dabbed some icing on the edges. Bad idea. It looked better bare. I guess now I know :)

Oh, and I forgot to color the gills and fins green so they ended up the same color as the lips. Another mistake I won't duplicate in class this week. I also discovered that when it's hot and humid outside, icing melts pretty quick.

So the cake turned out delicious (Butter Golden cake with butterscotch pudding in the center) and the icing is incredible. Not too shabby for my first attempt at decorating a cake!

My husband calls it being an overachiever. I call it being prepared.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A new hobby

I've been an admirer of beautiful cakes and cupcakes for a long time. I even attempted a fondant cake about 2 years ago and it turned out great. Not super creative, but I was just trying to get the fondant recipe down.

A few weeks ago we were at Joanns and I saw flyers for the Wilton Basics class and thought "I'd love to do that!" I had tons of encouragement from my awesome husband and signed up last Saturday. I start tonight and I'm super nervous, but very excited!

Hopefully I don't totally suck at it. Otherwise it will be a waste of a lot of money.

I'll be taking you on a journey through the next 4 weeks as I take the 4 Basics classes!! The good, the bad AND the ugly!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Finding Happiness

I read an article, or a General Conference talk, or a blog (I honestly can't remember which!) that talked about happiness. It surprised me because when I think of "finding happiness" that usually involves lots of soul searching and making major changes to your life.

To my very pleasant surprise it was an incredibly simple 3 words. Are you ready for it?


That's too easy, right? After reading this, and feeling slightly disappointed that it wasn't some profound piece of advice. I didn't give it another thought for quite some time. Until recently. I have so many 1/2 finished projects that I just don't have time for. It really gets to me to know that I have a blanket I need to finish crocheting. A scrapbook that desperately needs pictures, paint that needs to be touched up, and closets that were only organized on 1 or 2 shelves.

As I made my list of things I need to complete, it dawned on me that I felt truly happy when I would check those things off my list and know they aren't looming over my head anymore. Having 3 boys, 2 dogs, and a husband keeps me busy from sun up to sun down. I put in long hours keeping kids entertained, the house clean, meals cooked, laundry done, dogs groomed, fed and played with. I made the excuse for so long that I couldn't possibly finish making that blanket because I had no down time to myself. The truth is, if I am organized, I can multitask with no problem. If I can stay focused I can finish all the things I need to get done everyday with a little bit of time left to spare to do the things I really want to (or need to).

I started making a balloon wreath last week and it was a slow process that left a callous on my thumb. I really wasn't interested in finishing it. I hung it up on the hook at the top of the stairs and let it sit for a few days. Every time I opened the door, I'd see that wreath staring at me. Unfinished. 2 nights ago I made myself sit down and finish it while I watched a movie. It was nice. I didn't get to bed until almost midnight but I FINISHED IT! I can't even tell you the radiating joy I had when I held it up and inspected it to make sure there were no bare spots. For a moment, I was truly happy.

Such simple advice but I've found, upon finishing up my little projects, that it really does bring peace to the soul. There are so many things to worry about these days that we can't control. I'm doing everything I can to take care of the little things that I have control over.

I can testify to you that you will feel so much peace and feel less stressed if you complete those unfinished projects!!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Well-Child check

After 20 very trying months we finally got Emmett to GAIN SOME DAGGON WEIGHT!

My little scooter is now 20 pounds 8 ounces!!!!!!

Can I get a WOOT WOOT?!?!?!?!?!?!

Orson is a very healthy 16 pounds 3 ounces with NO TRACE OF A MURMUR!!! It's so incredible to have a low maintenance, inexpensive child! Is this what it's really like?? We get to enjoy him, and play with him and know that he's not sick...I can't even describe what this is like for us!

So to celebrate the awesome news, we got up early on Saturday and went to the ZOO! Pictures to follow...

Thursday, June 23, 2011

My little Dade

The last couple of days have been really difficult. All the kids have sort of ganged up on me.

This morning after feeding Orson and putting him back in bed, I had to go back in a few times and quiet him down and it woke Dade up. I got back into bed and moments later had a sweet little face staring at me from the doorway. I wanted to drag him back to bed...but I knew it wouldn't work and then he'd just be grouchy the rest of the day so I said "Dade, come get in bed with mom" and he jumped in the bed and said "Mom...lets nuggle!" (snuggle) and it just melted my heart so much.

That boy is such a handful, but he's so wonderfully sweet when he wants to be.

We are going to the Murray parade on July 4th and I'm so excited! I haven't been to a parade since I was little and the kids have never been! Rather than get up super early and drive all the way down we thought it would be fun to get a room on the 3rd and take the kids swimming and have a small vacation.

We're hitting the zoo this weekend and will be going to the aquatic center on the 9th. I haven't planned much further than that, as we're starting to head into birthday territory. Justin's birthday is the last week of July, and Dade's is just 8 days later. My little sisters turn 21 in September, and then my birthday and Emmett's birthdays are in October, just 11 days apart. November is all about Thanksgiving then December we celebrate sweet little Orson's first birthday just 8 short days shy of Christmas.

Dade is asking me for a pop-sue-ew (popsicle) so I guess I better oblige :)

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

What was I thinking?

What do the following pictures have in common??

They are used to prevent screaming, temper-tantrum, butt-head children.

On days like this, when all the kids are in the "I hate you and I'm going to do whatever I can to make you miserable" mood, I wonder...what was I thinking when I thought kids were a good idea?!

Don't get me wrong, I love my boys, but having 3 kids under 4 years old, it's exhausting. Emotionally, mentally and physically. It's even worse when there is no break. It's 24/7/365. I'm away from all the kids MAYBE 30 minutes a week. The other 167 1/2 hours of the week I'm a few steps - at most - away from the kids.

For now, I'm going to dream of long days on the beach, staring at the never-ending ocean with my sweet husband by my side and try to survive life with 3 boys!

Friday, June 10, 2011

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday, Tyler!

I wonder what you'd be like today...I'll never know...but I can always remember what you were.
Taken August 2000. 2 1/2 months before we lost him.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011


If you know me personally, you know I'm not a patient person. I like things done a certain way and in a timely manner. I believe that everything should be in place and in order and I overextend myself to keep up with this ridiculous OCD. I work sun-up to sun-down to have everything JUST SO.

I hate it.

It consumes my life.

It consumes my time.

It irritates my poor husband who has put up with it for so long.

I know this is a huge vice (among many others) of mine, but it's so hard to be patient and wait for things to happen.

I know Heavenly Father is watching over me. I know He loves me. I know He has a plan for all things, and they will happen in His time.

It's probably a lesson I need to learn, because things I'm anticipating tend to take FOREVER to happen/resolve and that's probably because I'm not learning anything. I'm just growing impatient and irritated. I'm not growing in patience.

This morning, upon reading more negative feedback from prospective buyers via our realtor, it just made my impatience even worse.

I made my way to www.LDS.org and started a scripture search for impatience and began reading. WOW. Humbled doesn't even begin to describe it. I felt such an overwhelming feeling of the Spirit and felt very compelled to fall to my knees in prayer.

I need help letting go. In my mind, I know the Will of our Father in Heaven will be done. In my heart I know it. Yet I can't allow myself to let. it. go.

Let. It. Go.

I think I need to change my approach. Concerning the house, I've been praying for someone to come and buy it. Maybe I should start praying for patience. For the ability to allow the Lord to bless me in the ways He sees fit, and not the ways I think I should be blessed.

A couple of scriptures really stood out to me

2 Peter 1:2
Grace and peace be multiplied unto you through the knowledge of God, and of Jesus our Lord

2 Peter 1: 6
And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness; 

Doctrine and Covenants 37:13
Ye are not able to abide the presence of God now, neither the ministering of angels; wherefore, continue in patience until ye are perfected. 

I am not perfect. I make so many mistakes. I repent of those mistakes and do what I can to be a better person. I'm constantly striving to be better. I really do try to live by President Hinckley's words and

Try a Little Harder to Be A Little Better 

I fail. 

Everyday I fail. 

Everyday I pray to have another day to try again. I'm so thankful I'm given a new opportunity every single day to try to become more Christlike. 

Our Sunday School lesson last week was on hypocrisy and those who serve the Lord with their lips and not their hearts. I've been thinking of that lesson and have been asking myself "what have I done to serve the Lord, and serve others?" 

I have so many friends who endlessly talk about Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and I've always had such a respect for that, yet a precious few of them actually serve him with their hearts. They go to church on Sunday and throw in His name in conversation or their Facebook status updates...but it ends there. They do not serve others (or they just don't talk about it) They do not humble themselves and actually try to be Christlike until they walk in the doors of their church on Sunday morning.

One other thing that REALLY gets me are these friends who attend church regularly and then go out shopping or to dinner on Sunday. I've done it. I'm not saying I'm perfect. I've broken many commandments, so please don't take what I'm saying as "I'm perfect and have never done anything wrong" but one of the commandments is to keep the Sabbath Day Holy. To Rest. 

How can we rest if we're out at Cracker Barrel and shopping at the mall? It may be relaxing for us, but us going out, means someone has to work. They don't get to rest and be with their family. 

Again, I've gone out shopping and out to eat on Sunday. Like I said, I'm not perfect, but I'm trying.

We are all hypocrites. We all need to do more to keep the commandments and our Covenants with Heavenly Father. 

Religious rant over.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011


So many things have been going through my mind the last few days.

After almost a month on the market, we've been hit with showings like crazy! Today is the 3rd day in a row we have an agent bringing people in. I'm trying to stay positive and keep praying that we get an offer soon. We have so much yard work to do but we can't get to any of it because we have to leave while the house is being shown, and once we get home we have to put the kids in bed, and by that time we're exhausted and just end up going to bed early. We also have to organize the basement because there is 6 years of JUNK spread out over 1900 sq. ft. and it's time to get rid of it.

I have been having mixed feelings about this move. The biggest being the new location. I'm THRILLED to be moving back to the "big city" but not so thrilled at our living situation. We are going to be renting while we save to buy another home. Probably 2-3 years depending on how much we're able to save every month. It's very humbling to go from home ownership back to renting. However, it's also a huge burden lifted. This house has been a money pit. Thousands of dollars have gone in and you can't even tell. We won't have to worry about the financial burden if the basement floods, or if the furnace or water heater go out. We don't have to spend our entire weekend making repairs and upgrades. We get to enjoy our life!

We are tired. We are frustrated. We are broke!

I read a wonderful quote several months ago and I've done my best to abide by those words since reading them. I've spent so many years of my life waiting for things to get better. Waiting for the drama to pass so I can move on. Waiting. Wasting time.

With all the health problems we've gone through with Dade and Emmett, we have been in a constant state of waiting. "Let's wait to go camping until Emmett is off oxygen. Let's wait to go to Disney Land until All the kids are big enough to ride all the rides. Let's wait to go on a cruise until the kids are older" it's all we do.

Waiting to live your life is as pointless as having beautiful china that isn't allowed to be used.

I refuse to lose another day because I'm waiting for my situation to become ideal...because in reality, things are never going to be perfect. There will always be something going on and I need to deal with that, and accept it, and be at peace with it.

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass,
It's about learning to dance in the rain"

Monday, May 16, 2011

The sickness has taken over. Again.

If I get sick again before the fall I'm going to lose my mind. I'm on an antibiotic for the SECOND TIME SINCE JANUARY. This is ridiculous.

Emmett started getting a cold about 3 weeks ago. It quickly went from a runny nose to a nasty cough, chest congestion and a slight fever. It didn't want to leave. He is starting to feel better, but this poor kid is sick all the time. I can recall 8 colds/flu since the first weekend in October. THAT'S TOO MANY FOR SUCH A LITTLE BOY!

I started getting a tickle in my throat the night before the Race for the Cure 5K. I ran it anyway and by Saturday night I was miserable. Justin was sick on Saturday as well, and Dade had started getting a little bit of a sore throat. Orson managed to evade it.

On Monday Justin called in and we layed around feeling sorry for ourselves, and trying to muster up the strength to take care of three kids while we're trying not to die.

On Tuesday Justin was better but I was getting worse. I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with bronchitis, sinusitis and a double ear infection. Great. Just great.

I started a heavy duty antibiotic as well as a strong cough medicine and, almost a week later, there is some improvement in the cough, although it's not totally gone and I've got a constant headache from coughing so hard. I'll take that over how I was feeling last week...ANY DAY!

Now that we're all on the mend, Orson is sick. He was throwing up everything he ate and was coughing a lot so Justin took him in to the doctor...he has the same thing as Emmett. Bronchiolitis. He's been on a nebulizer the last few days and has responded really well. With the exception of a small cough and a slight runny nose, he's back to his normal, happy, sweet self.

Now that the weather has warmed up I'm hoping all the colds go away for a long time.

Emmett was sent to Cardiology at Primary Children's for his EKG on the 6th. He was scheduled for an echo but the chest X ray and EKG looked really good so there was no need for an echo-which is good because at this age, he'd need to be sedated and if you've ever had to sedate your child, you know how awful it is for them when they wake up. The PFO is still there but for now, isn't causing any problems. We go back in 6 months and if all is well at that point, we don't need to go back until he's 3. WHEW!!! 

Emmett and Orson are the same size now (to give you an idea of just how SMALL Emmett is...or how BIG Orson is!) Emmett has dipped just below 18 pounds and Orson is 15 pounds 2 ounces. Emmett is wearing 3-6 month shorts. Orson is wearing 6-9 month shorts. They are both wearing 9 month zipper jammies (although Emmett can fit into his 12 monthers now, too) 

It's amazing the lasting effects of having a preemie. We thought the battle was over when he left the NICU. It's a constant struggle to keep weight on that kid. It's always a battle to keep germs away (one that's proven to be impossible) and it's heartbreaking to see your 19 month old watch his big brother play and run around and see that he desperately wants to join him..but can't because he can't stand on his own yet. It's really unfair. 

We've decided to start physical therapy and early intervention, even though we're moving. Hopefully he'll start walking by the end of summer and start talking sooner. If we have to transfer it all to Salt Lake that won't be a problem...but the longer we wait, the harder it's going to be for him to catch up.

I have a lot of pictures from the 5K but they are all on the cell phone so I need to get them sent to Facebook and then put on the blog. It's not flattering by any means...but I was also sick and just got done running 3 miles.


Thursday, May 5, 2011

Update on Emmett

I took Emmett to the Urgent Care last night because his breathing is labored and rattly. He has bronchiolitis and was tested for RSV. Thankfully that came back negative but bronchiolitis can turn into RSV so we're just watching him. Hopefully the sneezing and boogers stop today otherwise we're going to have to reschedule his echo and that could be days, weeks, or even months. It's extremely difficult to get in to see Dr. Gray on short notice. I might have to call the pediatrician to have him call Cardiology for another appointment...he was able to get us in pretty quick this time.

He's in good spirits. Smiling, laughing and being silly...but he looks miserable.

More to come later...

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


My little Emmett just can't catch a break.

Our Echo and EKG appointment has been moved up from July to Friday. His weight gain has pretty much stopped and he's turning blue around the mouth at least once a day.

I don't like when Cardiology can get us in quickly...it means they are concerned. And when they are concerned, they are usually right. When they are right...we usually end up needing a cath.

I have anticipated that we would need a cath for the PFO...but I've prayed SO hard that we wouldn't end up needing it. I know that having it will only help him thrive, but from the deepest part of my heart, I know I cannot handle this.

Emmett is still not crawling. Or walking. Or talking. He's 18 1/2 months old and he wears the same size clothes as his 4-month old brother.

Emmett is constantly sick. He usually goes about 2 weeks between colds. The colds last around 2 weeks. We are so tired of the boogers, the crabby mood and the poop that comes with sickness. I'm sure he's even more fed up with it than we are. He's such a trooper and he's been through so much. It's cruel that he has to continue to go through more.

We are also concerned he might be allergic to the dogs which is devastating to me because my puppies are my children. I can't just get rid of them. We got Neo when he was 8 weeks old and he just had his 6th birthday. We got Ellee when she was 8 weeks old and she is about to turn 5. I love them so very much and can't bear even thinking about not having them anymore.

On top of all this stress, we are putting our house up for sale tomorrow afternoon. I posted about that but took it down to revise it so it isn't so...open with so much personal information that isn't really appropriate for everyone in the world to know.

Please, just pray or send good thoughts for my little Emmett as he starts down another long and difficult path.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Home Remodel - The Living Room

I took 720 pictures of our home remodel, so I figured I'd post room by room to reduce the hours I'm sitting at the computer. Here is our living room, right as you walk into the house...

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Bathroom renovation

Some recent events have taken place that pulled me away from my blog, and even from facebook. Taking my blog down was necessary in order to sort some things out in my life that needed sorting. For a very long time.

I'm not at a point right now where I feel comfortable talking about it. With anyone. Not even my husband. We have yet to discuss a very particular event that took place a few weeks ago. I can't bring myself to mention it because as much as it helped, it was also degrading, humiliating, frightening and just flat out awful. Certainly not a constructive way to solve the problem. If anything, it made it worse.

I am back, on a limited, superficial basis. My personal life will not be a part of this blog at the present time. Maybe in the future, but right now, there are just too many bowling balls that I need to deal with before I can open up again.

I've decided to dedicate this blog - for now - to our home improvements. We actually got a tax return this year and minus the expense of a new water heater (that broke the same day as the washer. Also the same day I filed our taxes) we were able to buy new walnut laminate floors, paint, accessories for tiling and new baseboards.

The first - and smallest - project was our guest bathroom. It was seriously frumpy and was desperately in need of some tile! We laid 18 x 18 tile, painted the vanity a beautiful antique white, put new hardware on the drawers and door. We put up new chair rail, wainscoting and baseboards. The project took about 5 days from demo to complete. It took so long because the bathroom is right next to Dade and Emmett's room and we couldn't work after they went to bed, which was difficult because that was the only time we really could work on it.

I forgot to take before pictures, and I haven't gotten the after pictures off the camera yet...so here are the pictures from the (sort of) beginning to the end (sort of)

So there it is. I'll post the totally finished pictures later.

My project today is to clear out the pantry, knock down a wall to make it bigger, and put new shelves up.