Emmett Arden

Emmett has been our trooper from day 1. He came to us just when we needed him most. We had 2 blissfully happy weeks after we got the positive pregnancy test! Everything in our lives was perfect! Just a short 14 days later I started what several doctors believed to be a miscarriage. After looking at the baby on the ultrasound our doctor said the sac was malformed and the fetus would probably not survive. We had 2 ultrasounds in a 24 hour period and they were both the same. Bleeding and cramping continued for several days and we waited for the end.

My husband gave me a blessing and everything stopped. No bleeding. No cramping. At our 8 week appointment the ultrasound showed a totally normally forming sac and baby! It was truly the miracle we were praying for!
At the 20-week gender ultrasound my placenta was lying a little bit low and we were told if it didn't move I would probably end up having a C-section. Obviously this isn't what we wanted but if it meant a healthy baby, we would deal with it. 
On October 7th I had a "placenta check" ultrasound and it had moved far enough away that there was no fear of a C-section. WAHOO!

Since Dade is our little CHD child, we had a fetal echo on Emmett to make sure his heart was ok. The echo was on October 15th and was perfect and showed no heart problems! We felt like we were finally able to enjoy the pregnancy and we breathed a sigh of relief.  We were being overloaded with fantastic news :)

On October 19th I felt "off" and since my doctor isn't in the office on Monday his nurse sent me to L&D at the hospital. I got there and they monitored me for a couple of hours, did a few tests and sent me home. I took it easy Tuesday and Wednesday and was feeling pretty good when Justin got home Wednesday evening. We took Dade outside to play and I sat on the front porch and talked with Justin about his day. I don't know what he said but I started laughing. I thought I peed my pants and I started laughing even harder :) When it didn't stop I said "geez I should probably go make sure my water didn't break!" I was joking of course! I went to the bathroom and blood had soaked through my jeans and was running down my legs.

We were at the hospital within 10 minutes and they had me hooked to IV's soon after. After about 2 hours I started having contractions that were so intense I was needing to breathe through them. The nurses became alarmed at the amount of blood I was losing and they called my doctor. During a contraction a nurse came in and said "We are doing the section" and after that everything was going so fast it felt like I wasn't even in my body anymore. I wasn't even able to sign consent forms for the anesthesiologist because there was no time. They had me prepped and out the door in about 3 minutes. They rushed me down the hall and into the OR. My clothes were literally cut off of me and I was given a spinal block and prepped for surgery.

Dr. S came in and said we were going to get Emmett out of there and everything would be fine. 

I was 31 weeks and 2 days.

Emmett was delivered a few minutes later and was briefly shown to me over the drape and was whisked off to the NICU. According to Dr. S my placenta was pretty much trashed and it looked "very bruised" Emmett was breathing in blood and I had NO amniotic fluid left. Had we waited much longer he probably wouldn't have made it. If it weren't for the fast-acting doctors and nurses I might have lost my life as well.

I got to see Emmett about 20 hours after he was born but I wasn't allowed to touch or hold him. He was very jaundiced so he was under the Bili lights and had IV's all over his body. On his 3rd day I was allowed to touch him:)

After 4 very long weeks Emmett joined us at home and life was great. For two weeks. He had a bulge in his belly so we took him to his pediatrician who sent us to the ER at Primary Children's Medical Center. Emmett was diagnosed with an inguinal hernia and had surgery to repair it the following week.

At his 4 month appointment in February 2010 the pediatrician heard a heart murmur and referred us to PCMC.

On March 19th Emmett was diagnosed with Mild to Moderate Pulmonary Hypertension, Patent Ductus Arteriosus (PDA) and Patent Foramen Ovale (PFO/ASD). 

Emmett had a heart cath to close the PDA in June 2010. The surgery was a success and as of now, the PFO is still there and we are watching it closely. We have prepared ourselves for the possibility that it will have to be closed via heart cath. If that's the case...we'll cross that bridge when we get there.



Emmett is thriving. He is delayed in his speech and gross motor skills but he amazes us every day with his determination and positive attitude.

I would like to add a note to each of these pages as I've had many people ask about the origins of my children's names. Dr. Emmett Brown, AKA Doc from the Back to the Future trilogy has always been one of our favorite movie characters of all time. He's hilarious. He's smart. He's a little "out there". Just like our little Emmett. And I have to admit that I'd just finished reading Twilight and was having a little bit of a pregnancy crush on the big, muscly Emmett from the book and wanted to immortalize him in our family. No joke.




This Woman's Work
Kate Bush

Pray God you can cope.
I stand outside this woman's work,
This woman's world.
Ooh, it's hard on the man,
Now his part is over.
Now starts the craft of the father.

I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.
I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.

I should be crying, but I just can't let it show.
I should be hoping, but I can't stop thinking

Of all the things I should've said,
That I never said.
All the things we should've done,
That we never did.
All the things I should've given,
But I didn't.
Oh, darling, make it go,
Make it go away.

Give me these moments back.
Give them back to me.
Give me that little kiss.
Give me your hand.

(I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.
I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.)

I should be crying, but I just can't let it show.
I should be hoping, but I can't stop thinking

Of all the things we should've said,
That were never said.
All the things we should've done,
That we never did.
All the things that you needed from me.
All the things that you wanted for me.
All the things that I should've given,
But I didn't.
Oh, darling, make it go away.
Just make it go away now.